if I could only coax you overboard,
to leave these lulling shores,
to get you oceanside.
feeling mellow... in the perfect world, tomorrow would be a holiday - no plans, no commitments... i'd be free to get lost in my own world, not think about work for once... it's frustrating - trying your best to fit in, when you are clearly out of place. so you don't like me... screw it, i'm not that fond of you anyway. if only.
guess i'm not feeling as mellow as i orginally thought... oh well. i blame the ticking clock - how mellow can you be, when you only have work to look forward to the following morning?
i desperately need me time - just me, myself and perhaps my mp3s. i don't see it happening anytime soon though.
do you?
i don't like the competition - never did. sure, i get a kick everytime i come out on top, but honestly, it gets so tiring sometimes. a grade is just a grade. it doesn't dictate how worthy i am, but why am i still so hung up on getting my name on that bloody dean's list?
chatted with kor on msn for a bit - it felt nice having someone to unload everything on, someone who actually understands that i'm not okay. mummy still thinks my sojourn to thailand was entirely wholesome, to which, all i can say is - what she doesn't know can't hurt her.
above all, i'm okay. i just need some time to figure things out for myself. and no, i'm not about to give up just yet - it's my ticket out of this place and i'm hanging on to it for my dear life.
49 working days till the holidays - till then, we'll all float on okay. then again, have i ever not been okay?
hard to tell.
is it really that hard?
i'm driving myself up the wall thinking about 2009. there are decisions to be made, battles to be fought... i'm not exactly looking forward to it, to be honest.
it's at least 200 odd days to 2009, why fret about it now, you ask? life altering decisions aren't made in a day, my dear. i'm not going to let it rest until i'm sure of what i'm doing.
well... i'm currently exploring a few options - as i have been, for the past 2 years... i won't say i'm particularly stressed... perturbed would be a better word.
afraid of change, afraid of staying the same;
when temptation calls, we just look away.
steven page knows what he's talking about, for sure. there you go nisha - the reason why sad people listen to sad songs.
i am perfectly capable of taking care of myself.
i've witnessed some pretty stupid behaviour over the past six days - seen some things i shouldn't have... inhaled more second-hand smoke that i'd have liked, but that's okay... i'm back. i'm in one piece. i'm good.
it's more of a turn-off than anything else...
i'm toying with a few ideas - 2009's going to be so perfect! i just know it!
i think i might be addicted to gimmicks, and i blame the industry.
so i bought a crappy gift - it wasn't as much crappy as it was irrelavant, but it really wasn't my fault! it was the day before mothers' day, the shops were closing, i was literally having a panic attack.
anyway, the effort i put into this more than makes up for it.
took me a while, but it came out pretty good... love my lines - they ooze emotional appeal, though i'm not sure if my mum got it... oh well, it's the thought that counts, no?
i still don't fancy writing all that much...
Didn't have a camera by my side this time
Hoping I would see the world with both my eyes
Maybe I will tell you all about it when I'm in the mood to lose my way with words.
for some reason, the concept behind john mayer's 3 x 5 is incredibly attractive to me. if a guy were to say to me the exact words that is in the song - or rather, convey something with similar depth, i will certainly be smitten.
meanwhile, i'll wait.
i'm the happiest when i'm in love, and right now, i'm positively crazy about the kooks. it's been a while since i've been this besotted with a band - it's a good feeling.
check out the gnarls barkley cover - not one of my favourite song, but i love the way it was executed. just two men and their guitars - so simple, yet so very attractive... and i've digressed! seriously though, you have to check them out. luke has the dreamiest voice. in fact, he's just replaced nate ruess as my favourite male vocalist! ta-dah!
overall, i'd say i had a good weekend - i read a bit, watched a movie, chilled out to great music... it was lazy. it was exactly what i needed.
i'm okay. whatever happened, already happened - so be it.
yea... that's pretty much it. i'm still holding out for 2009, in case you were wondering. i have high hopes.
